LotusBG

Stilian G.

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Du Bist -- 1 of 4 by LotusBG, literature

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Du Bist -- 1 of 4

Du (Bist) You You are You are a friend You are understanding You are not demanding You are always fair You are always there You always really care You don't judge You respect You look bellow the skin right into the heart right where it counts You are in my mind You just won't go I really don't mind though You are different You never get angry You are like a hard ascent that i will conquer You are beautiful in every way You never let me look away You are like a river of fire You are what my heart desire You are...

Dreams and Reality 2 of 4 by LotusBG, literature

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Dreams and Reality 2 of 4

Dreams and Reality Every night the dream repeats itself. You are there, And I am there. Everynight I tell you of my feelings toward you, And you tell me i am silly. But then it changes. You give me a second chance, A chance to redeem myself in your eyes. A chance to love you again. They say dreams are your deepest desires. How do I know your answer isn't just what I want to hear? The answer i have been longing for. How do I know you won't slap me across the face? Tell me to leave your live, FOREVER. That, I can not live with. Please let my dreams turn to reality

The Dream and The Truth 3 of 4 by LotusBG, literature

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The Dream and The Truth 3 of 4

The Dream and The Truth Why must you be so close yet so far away? As if in a nightmare that repeats itself. Night after night. Why do you run away when know you will have to face it sooner or later? Why avoid the simple truth, the truth I want you to know. Why does it happen this way? In my dreams when I reveal it to you it all disappears. All that is left is music playing. The dream is gone, and so are you. Will I ever be able to tell you for real? Is there a way I can tell if you will be mad, be disgusted, hate me forever? Or will you give me another chance, for i have learned from my mystakes and those of others? I h

Tears of You -- 4 of 4 by LotusBG, literature

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Tears of You -- 4 of 4

Tears of You "I think it's better this way, don't you?" "Yeah, I guess." Yet my mind and body scream. They scream from the pain. The pain that tears at me from the inside. The inside aching from the lie. The lie that brings tears to my eyes. Tears on the inside. Being flooded by emotion. Emotion expressing my love. My love for you. You make my day with your lovely face. The face that says beautiful words that can make my eyes bleed with tears. Tears in my eyes. I will respect your wishes as a friend. A friend who will stay in my heart forever. A heart full of love. A love that will make me wait. Wait for you with tears of a

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June 12, 1989
Canada
Deviant for 18 years
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Current Residence: Ottawa, Canada
Favourite genre of music: Rock, Alternative, Industrial, Metal, Techno, DDR, Trance
Favourite photographer: Don't have one
Favourite style of art: Don't have one
Operating System: MBP 15 w/ OSX 10.6.6, XP SP3 OEM in VM, Windows 7 Ultimate
MP3 player of choice: Blackberry
Shell of choice: 150mm HE, 150mm DUAP, 150mm HEAT
Wallpaper of choice: Cars (BMW, AUDI, Porsche, Mitsubishi ...)
Skin of choice: My own
Favourite cartoon character: Naruto, Sasuke, Hinata, Neji, Sakura, Gon, Killua, Dita, Kakashi...
Personal Quote: "There is no such thing as strong alcohol, just weak people"

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Don't have one

Favourite Movies

Eurotrip, Office Space, Harold and Kumar go to White Castle, Hackers, Top Gear, The Long Way Round

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

Rammstein, Linkin Park, Darude, DJ Tiesto, Hallucinogen, Apocalyptica, Various Bulgarian Bands

Favourite Writers

Don't have one

Favourite Games

WiC, CoD 4 MW2

Favourite Gaming Platform

Mac, 360, PC, PS3

Tools of the Trade

MBP 15, G5, PS 7, PS CS5 Extended, Filters for PS and vague art knowledge

Other Interests

Cars, Computers, That Special Someone Who's Nowhere To Be Found

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Nov 6, 2009

Remember, Remember the 6th of November

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Well, this is weird. I just wished "someone" a happy birthday. I actually sang it to them on the phone. I have never done that for anyone else, ever. It was kind of weird for me, for more than one reason, apart form the singing). I keep wondering why I do this to myself and why I keep going on. I really don't know, well I do. I really hope that this someone doesn't read this (though I am still going to write it as if you are). That will make things between us even more awkward. If you know me, then you most likely know who this is and if you don't then a name won't matter to you anyways. I am going to dinner today with this person, to a ve

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Oct 10, 2008

Wow

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Wow, this place is still here. It's been a while...long while. University sucks. Life sucks. Work rocks... that doesn't sound right does it....???? I am back...for now...maybe...maybe not. Blah........ Stilian

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Jun 13, 2006

Not so Exciting Newz

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Ok, so it's the 13th now, a day after my B-Day and the Cappies Gala. My school got totally owned. it had one of the most nominations and we only got 2 awards out of about 10+ possible ones. Me (sound) and my buddy (lights) should have won, we created sound from scratch and created our own lighting plots. We were ignored for months and had to pull though on our own with no support. When crunch time came, we were asked to be there at 6:30am (for me this is getting up at 4:30) cuz we weren't "ready". So I say fuck cappies. ALl that i got from them is a shinny metal medal that sais i was a nominee and something to put in my resume, that may or ma